audrie87

I posted a new weight, i sort of started it all over on the weight scale because i hadn’t weighed in in so long. So that is updated and now i’m ready to track my losses!

Today is sunday the 14th of december 2008. I have tried many times to lose weight and have given up almost every time. I’m unhappy with how I look and how I feel. I’m so uncomfortable in my own skin and extremely self-conscious. My Fiance loves me the way I am but I know that if i lost weight we’d have a better relationship. I’m tired of starting a diet just to give up. Making excuse after excuse for why I can’t eat healthy this day or why I deserve to eat bad. If I’m trying to reward myself it should be with something healthy because truly when I lose all the weight, that day will be the best reward. I eat when I’m upset, and I also eat when I’m bored. Choosing a hobby will help me take my mind off of what’s upseting me, and will also help me from getting bored. I think if i do get bored, getting up and going for a walk or clean or exercise would be a great way to keep my mind and body occupied. I’m unhappy all the time, i’m at a breaking point, I’m so disappointed with myself for not being able to stick with a weight loss program. And I’m angry with myself for not having the will power to accomplish this goal. I want to do this so bad. I need to do this for my health physically but also for my mental health.

My first goal is to work on making the portions i eat smaller, and to drink more water. I’m going to cut out bad sugars, caffiene, and eat less carbs. I will work out at least 2 times a week.

My first weight loss goal… I will lose 30 pounds four months from this post. Which would be 04/14/2009.

I will post my weight tomorrow.

That’s it I can’t do this anymore, i can’t sit around and be lazy and let my body get worse. I have a 15 pound weight loss goal by 12/25/2008 starting tomorrow 9/20/2008. In those three months of dieting and exercise, i must show complete dedication and determination. Then when chris and i get back from Texas, i will be able to start a very intense diet. It is safe and very effective. I in two session which equals about 80 days. I could lose 80 pounds or more. I am very excited. My goal weight is 140, i  have 120 pounds to lose. But i can do it!! One small step at a time!! I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!!